The mail you never received

Oh girl! That day. I can't say I had a great day, but also can say that I had a great moment when we talked, just to talk. It was so funny and easy, and the only way to talk. So now, I want to tell you something, the reasons of my mad mood, so lets start:

First thing I saw after knocking on your door was your brother. So sweet, gorgeous, and a little shy. Well, he was so nice when he asked me to take a sit, it was a stupid detail, because "of course I am about to take a sit", but it was, after all, a good detail. And, the first thing I wanted to see was your face, to touch your skin, to hear your voice, to get those goosebumps, but I know I was 10 minutes late and I wouldn't like to make you wait for me for 10 minutes behind the door like a poppy, it would have been egoist. I just got a little angry immediately when I said hi to your father and he was so awful and impolite. I was charming and sweet, he just said "hi" with a dog face and went to the bathroom as he didn't want to see me there sitting on the sofa with his daughter, or at his house or even in the town and stuff. He annoyed me so quickly because I felt not welcome there, but I did know and remember, that he is always a rude person, I'm sorry. And then your mother arrived home. I was expecting a warmer receive in her case, because of how she showed me her personality before, I mean, like a princess who think a thing about you but doesn't tell you what, on the contrary shows you she's kinda kind and a lovely one, but well, I don't know about that, I don't know her that well. I actually was expecting this feeling I was expecting (despite the redundancy), waiting to be comfortable there for a second.

And then you! (Hold on) YOU. When I saw you I literally saw lights, I mean I really did. Your curtains moved and let the sun came in. And girl I swear I can tell, that shit felt like magic: you, walking toward me with lights and breeze, with curtains moving, as if some amazing supernatural success happening right in front of my eyes, in the right moment with the perfect scenery. Such a moment! Red Marvel's sweatshirt. Sexy black leggings. Your blue necklace. Pretty hair. Your brown eyes, damn. What a kind of beauty. Every sick and stinky day, and of course, every happy moment in life. I only knew, in that couple of seconds of reality, that I wasn't able to have a life with you, I mean, not that kind of planed life that people dream once in life, soft, blue, easy, ¡PERFECTAAA! But also knew, that I wanted to restart one, from the zero to the infinity, an adventure, a big one. I knew!, and still knowing, that I do love you, and that I'm just able to be with you, not only blue but rainbow, all the screaming colors, with highs and lows and bad and worst and rains of hurricane, just to make love not just to have sex but to retake the pieces of our love all over the whole floor, and laugh about how silly we were an hour before. Then say sorry to the other, in the right instant we smile and kiss. Say "I love you" at the same time, start laughing again just because of it, lay down and fall asleep as two broken kids who fit together, who have fun and sad stuff incoming, but live to never leaving or letting go the love of their life, who also are the real and fantastic life of each other.

m.l